Big changes or not

So I have been going through quite a struggle over the last few months (well really more like a year but who's counting). It's been stressful, painful, difficult, ugly, uncomfortable... all of that and then some.

Over the last week there has been a change in the tide. Because of my very loving family I've been given another chance. An opportunity to do things right.

I have prayed for guidance, faith, strength. And God answered that prayer. The road to this point has been less than easy and I don't expect that this next leg will be a smooth ride. But I'm so thankful for God bringing me to this point. Thankful for my family not giving up on me.

Part of my family's effort to help me was the suggestion that I share a place with my 86 year old grandmother. Grandma currently lives in a senior apt. community. She has her own little place conveniently located near a shopping center that she can walk to, a senior center and lovely neighbors only a holler away.

The family's thought was that I could save money and Grandma would no longer be lonely/alone.

Do you know what Grandma said to that, "NO". She told me today, "Mija, I love you and your aunt and your uncle but I don't want to live with any of you." Well alrighty then.

My wonderful Grandma is not all that sharp these days but when it comes to certain things she is clear as day. I couldn't help but smile when she flat out said I don't want to live with you.

And she could even see why I wouldn't want to live with her (we have our way of doing things, we need our own space etc...).

Despite her moments of loneliness (she hates eating by herself) she is perfectly content where she is. And when she gets too sick/frail to take care of herself she wants to go to a home.

I'm grateful for all that my family has done for me. And I love that they are trying to help me find my way. Although sharing a place with Grandma has one obvious advantage in the long run I think me staying on my own is for the best.